all the feels.

How adorable are the couples I have been able to spend time with and capture!? I am having so much fun learning the photography process. & being able to capture so much emotion and love in a picture that I hope they will cherish for a lifetime, is pretty amazing.

Personal Life Update #1: I'm 6-0 in our couples Fantasy League and I won against my husband last week. No big deal.

#2 BABY UPDATE!  We have been diving into our surrogacy process. Lots of big steps over the past month. We met with our doctor and went through the process step by step. We are working with the Jones Institute and our physician is amazing, smart and has a super cool accent. (I don't think that improves our chances of becoming parents, but I enjoy listening to her talk) We also met with our surrogate, and lucky for us she is truly the best part of all of this. She is the definition of selfless. I mean, you kind of have to be to offer to carry someone's baby, but she really is. She is so caring and thoughtful. PLUS she has already put time and effort into learning about the process! WE are so LUCKY.  I've known her for almost 15 years & she's ALWAYS been a sweetheart. When she found out I couldn't carry a child, she didn't hesitate to offer. I'm sitting here smiling ear to ear typing this, again, we are so blessed. I have had the honor of having her as a friend in my life and now we get to form an even deeper bond. I did mention how lucky we are, right?

So now that we have started our discussions, I have a plate full of TO DO's. First step, meet with a lawyer. We found one who has created contracts for surrogates before, which makes me breathe easier since there are lots of I's to dot and T's to cross, we want to make sure EVERYONE is safe and comfortable with the process. We hope to meet with her over the next few weeks. Second step, my husband has to go through a rigorous testing checklist including but not limited to: labs, physical, take his wife on a date, cryo-lab (where they freeze the sperm) and of course a packet of paperwork. SO MUCH PAPERWORK. (side note: my husband is incredible. I swear he is a super hero. 1. he has to live with me daily and 2. he holds my hand through every hoop we jump through, with a smile.) When the doctor sat down with us to go over the steps, it seemed like a pretty clear process but as we have started to dig in, it's a lot of work. & money. & work. We also have to meet with a psychiatrist, all 3 of us. Which I am looking forward to, I think it's necessary. I'm starting to get more emotional with each step. Happy, scared, nervous, anxious and sometimes all of it. I had a dream that I was pregnant a few weeks ago. I think that's my internal coping going on. I feel like I accepted the fact that I couldn't have a baby when I found out but now that we want to have a baby it's a whole new can of feelings. So, as we tackle our projects and homework please keep us in your thoughts, prayers or your bank accounts. (I kid, I kid.) I know the end goal is SO worth it. I just keep trying to put that thought above all else.

"Even miracles take a little time." - The Fairy Godmother